Now i understand why people say the truths are always the hardest to accept...
Because there are some truths are really harsh.. When u get to know the truth, u'll be wishing that u had never ask for it..
However, if u dont know the truth, it is the one thing that u will want to know for the rest of ur life...
but when u know bout it, it will be something that u'll remember forever...
So, what should we do? I believe time will tell..
but tonight will be another sleepless night for me...
This is a lyrics that i copied from my dear's blog...
It is so true... i am feeling exactly like this song...
I used to call you my boy
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that i never had
When i think of you
I don't know what to do
When will i see you again
I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Boy i'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that i want
You are all that i need
Can't you see how i feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When i think of you
I don't know what to do
When will i see you again
It's all over by now i guess.. The rain has come and gone.. But why hasn't the sun appear?
After 8 sweet months, we've made the best decision that we could... we'll still cherish, appreciate and miss each other always...
But although sad, it's still lucky that we ended in a very good way... We could still care for each other..meeting each other when we want.. go out when we are free... catch up during free time... Isn't it good? i dont know..i cant answer my own question..
Certainly i wish we could have done better than that.. but love is always like this.. we can't force something that's impossible.. we can't keep what's not ours...
Only way to let us feel better is to let go.. When we have the freedom, we'll know whether our decision is right or wrong... Guess we are more relieved by now...
We'll still be friends.. very good friends.. i've liked him.. loved him.. cherished him.. treasured him.. worried bout him.. cried for him...
by now, i've lost him as a bf, but gained him as a good friend that will always care for me..
If there's one day we have the faith, i know by that time, we'll be very blissful...
Lastly, take care my dear.
After 8 sweet months, we've made the best decision that we could... we'll still cherish, appreciate and miss each other always...
But although sad, it's still lucky that we ended in a very good way... We could still care for each other..meeting each other when we want.. go out when we are free... catch up during free time... Isn't it good? i dont know..i cant answer my own question..
Certainly i wish we could have done better than that.. but love is always like this.. we can't force something that's impossible.. we can't keep what's not ours...
Only way to let us feel better is to let go.. When we have the freedom, we'll know whether our decision is right or wrong... Guess we are more relieved by now...
We'll still be friends.. very good friends.. i've liked him.. loved him.. cherished him.. treasured him.. worried bout him.. cried for him...
by now, i've lost him as a bf, but gained him as a good friend that will always care for me..
If there's one day we have the faith, i know by that time, we'll be very blissful...
Lastly, take care my dear.
Everyone is having their own problems i guess...
From the way we played or fool around most of the times, there are hidden sadness among us...
What could we do to solve our peoblems? Or what could we do to make ourselves better?
I dont have the answer to my own... Just pray hard and hope everything will go on fine...
However, i've realised the importance of friends.. They are the people who will listen to u, support u, be with u...
I cant express how grateful am i to have these caring friends around me... All i can say i i dont wanna lose u all.. Sincerely have to thanks u all for all the caring messages, caring phone calls and of course the biggest support that u guys could give...
To dear yin, thanks for all the comforting phne calls.. ^^
To 'lapsap", thanks for the effort u put in to help me..
To "lapsap2", thanks for coming over when i called..
To "xiu fa", thanks for all the calls, all the caring words...
To "ye fa", thanks for being so supportive..
To "yu fa", thanks for being there with me always even when i dont expect to see u.. ( we so "you yuan"!!!)
Having u guys in my life are so great!! Love u all much much...
16/9 and 17/9 is 2 very memorable days to me... on the 16th, after our practical at college, we accompanied cindy to see the doctor.. then we went watch her and robin to bury their "bebe"... it/s such a sad thing that "bebe" died... i guess they will be missing it much..
then we went to bukit jalil for a charity carnival.. thats quite a meaningful thing to do i guess... we spent some money there for food... then we headed to giant to buy our food and ingredients for our big cook-out at my house.. cat, cindy and cy is staying at my house on sat night!
then when we reached home, we got some rest.. while cat went back to her house..l eaving cindy and cy at mine.. we talked.. laughed... cooked...waited cat to come over to my house...
then we did a make-over for cat.. cindy made a new hair style, cy put on mascara, and i put on eye shadow and lip gloss for her.. then ta-da! she's all ready to attend her friends b'day party..
after cat left, sindy, cy and i continued with out stuf...called delivery... and watch movie...
then when night falls, cat came back... we washed up.. sat on the bed.. played cards..
then we talked till very late... at last all fell asleep in no time...
17/9, we continued with our cooking.. ate a very delicious lunch... in a very elegant surrounding, we created the atmosphere on our own.. in a western style.. we ate.. we played cards.. till we are tired then decided go to cat's house to watch dvd.. reached her house..got scare by "vicki" the dog... too hyperactive dy...
but i was playing with her in no time.. never realise that i can too play with a dog.. vicki is so cute!! miss her ler... after watching dvd, cindy, cy and i went back to our house... we bathed, cindy made my and cy's hair curly... all dress nicely, we went to cat's house to find her again... then we went to jusco equine park... then at last ended our day at wing's cafe... we've shared so much so much of stuff.... cindy slept at my house again... cat and cy went back...
will never forget this fun weekend we've had... busy... energetic.. sweet..
"dai hong fa" wanna say thanks to "yu fa", "ye fa" and "xiu fa"...
"yu jian ni men shi xin fu de, mei li de, tian mi de" ^^ u all will understand de lar~
Well, things have changed since a month ago...
i've been trying very hard to tell myself it will be alright.. it will be fine..
but things do not turn out how i want it to be...
So, perhaps let things flow by itself... or maybe i should let go some of it...
Then i'll be happier myself...
Since i'm already not-so-important...
After college re-opens for a week, i've had my tests for biology, and mathematics..
and the results for maths is out today.. can't believe i got a borderline A...
As for the chemistry, i got the same result as my maths too... Hope my biology will be better lar..
Another good news is i already passed all my LANS studied subjects!!
i needn't see those books and notes again... can throw.. can burn.. haha.. but it wil be a wastage..
well, i'll see what i can do...
