Ever since I started working, I don't have much time for my friends anymore... And that bothers me a little. I couldn't make any effort to call up people for "yum cha" session, to ask a couple of friends for movie and shopping and not even a simple hang out. During weekends, I'm always busy with my family and never thought of sending out messages to a friend or calling just to say hi. Even, I talked lesser with my dear compared to last time. She sent me a sms asking whether I want to chat with her on phone or not, I replied that I need to sleep because I'm tired... I'm always tired since I started working... For all I can remember, I never did reject her request to talk on phone. Even she didn't make a request, I'll also call her at least once a week (not to forget those frequent sms-es we sent each other) But this time, I'm sorry my dear...

So, every now and then, whenever a friend came across my mind... I'll just quickly text him/ her or make a phone call. Many Thursdays ago, I bumped into an old friend, Daniel. After that, while driving home.. I called him and it's really nice hearing his voice again. We haven't been talking for more that half a year.. that's really long... When I went off to Bali, I received Caryn's sms thanking me for her birthday present, of course I'm happy to hear from her, but sadly couldn't celebrate with her. I too received Cat's sms asking me to go MidValley with her but I couldn't make it. ><>

Then, Kitt's birthday was on 24th.. I sent him a sms and then called him while I'm driving on my way home after work. A voice from the distant... is what I need to hear the most. He is a one friend I really rely on very much. He is a companion during hard times and also a friend who can always make me smile and laugh whenever I'm down - because he's such a joker! ^^ Although the conversation only lasted 5 minutes (precisely), it's enough to keep my night going on cheerfully.

The warmest message I've received was from Yew last night. We haven't come out to see each other for quite some time. He was very caring sending me a msg saying he hopes that I'm fine, and promises to come out "yum cha" soon. Thank you my friend for remembering me although I didn't make any effort to find you. I'll definitely show myself up when you call. :p

Not to forget the many phone calls and sms-es from a friend in US. I bet calling and texting me costs you a lot, my dear. :p Waiting for your return soon in May... (You promised me my 21st birthday present all the way from US!) Haha.. *Hugs*

So, to all my dear friends, do not feel surprised when I suddenly call or sms you guys. Because I just miss you all so much....

There is always this kind of decision I have to make after every result of my major exam is released. There is always this anxiousness I have when I don't know what to decide, what to do with my life later on. I'm forever worrying that I will make a wrong decision ( I had a few done for the past couple of years ) but I told myself never to regret and so, I don't regret. Guess this is some principle I'm holding on dearly to live on...

My results of A-level came out at last. This is the time to busy on doing research of which university I want to enroll in and also to worry about whether the universities want to accept me or not. To get admitted to a pharmacy course, I have to go through interview and aptitude tests... yes, another series of tests. Reason to work hard is to get into the course - my dream that has yet to be accomplished since secondary 5.

Many had asked me why didn't I enter other courses and insisted to do Pharmacy. I answered, "I found my interest, and couldn't let it go until I'm tired trying and knowing that I won't succeed forever". Some had asked why didn't I have a second choice or a back-up plan just in case I can't get into the course. Without hesitation, I answered "If I have a 2nd choice, then I wouldn't be doing A-level." Many may feel I wasted some time or made a big sacrifice, but again, I thought to myself, there is nothing worth gain without sacrificial. As the saying goes "No pain, no gain."

The moment I got my results, all I wanna do is to shout my heart out. Partly is because I did well in 2 subjects. Another part is I did okay for 1 subject. So I cannot decide whether to shout for joy, or shout in pain. Sigh.. Contradictions...

Hopefully, I'll get admitted to the course I've wanted all along then I could start working towards my goal. All I need is to get into the course... Wish me luck, my friends.. Will you?

Please God... *praying hard & crossing my fingers*

The time now, 0031...