cause' I've stopped counting the days... No longer thinking how is life without you will be, because there is so much more important things to do. Attended the second wake in a month's time reminds me once again, how fragile life is. If we do not know how to appreciate each other's presence then staying away like now is the best option. Just a random message occasionally is enough for both of us to know...
Couldn't put everything in words, into a post for everything that occurred for the past one year. September last year onwards, I never deleted any of your whatsapp messages, phone texts, facebook messages, emails, and every little memory that we had together. Couldn't count how many messages we have sent - prolly' few hundred thousands of them. These few nights I've been reading back our conversations, trying to figure out how did our friendship developed....
"Mina... Even when everyone doesn't trust me, u must trust me.. K?" "Everyone else can think I'm stupid, immature or a bad person.. Only u cannot." "Dear... I am really sorry if I made u angry or upset.. I tend to do that a lot..." "I really like you also... But I know one day, sooner or later I'll make you unhappy. I'm afraid of losing you. I'm scared of losing you by making mistakes....
and it was enough to pushed me away. "Sorry, personal matters..." I couldn't remember the last time you didn't wanna tell me about your personal matters because we were always telling each other everything. You never attempt to hide your feelings in front of me. You scolded and cursed when you were angry, you drank when you were upset, you were vexed when your mood came crashed down, you told me when you missed me......
