How far a distance could be?
Although we meet each other so often...
Although we sits at the same table, it feels like u're so far away...
Although we are talking at the same time, it feels like there's something missing between us...
Although looking at the familiar face of urs.. listening to the familiar voice of urs..
Although we understand each other well last time...
No matter how near u are, i can never reach out to u anymore...
It's a pity that i'm slowly forgetting the voice u used to talk to me... Slowly forgetting the familiar smell of urs.. Slowly forgetting the number i used to call and sms so frequently... Slowly forgetting the way u smile.. Slowly forgetting all the expressions of urs..
We used to be the best of friends.. We shared everything.. But, it seems this mutual feelings between us has disappeared.. It's long gone...
However, i stil miss u.. really..i still do ^^
Take care my friend.. my dear friend..

24/11 and 25/11...
Days for meeting friends.. was so-so happy... fri night, went yum cha with yun, yin and bobo...
dint see them for such a long time..i kinda miss them.. unexpectedly, i met with kevin, khirun and ben again.. we chatted quite happily, and wanna plan for a trip.. but that gotta see if it turns out fine...
hope that we could really make it.. it will be so much fun i guess...
after yum cha session, we hugged each other... saying words of take care.. then it was my 1st time going to a futsal centre.. Arena score...
We actually were to see khirun they all play futsal, but we ended up chatting outside... I haven't heard from yun,yin and bobo for long.....gotta catch up some news from them...at last reached hoome by 1.30am...
on sat morning, woke up early to teach... then after that, went to midvalley.. meet up with dear, caryn and wen bin... we watched movie- Death Note.. not a bad movie... i bought myself the playboy "purse" that i've wanted.. ate korean food...
Then very after 10pm, waited for jie fu.. we went yum cha together at Ajimal...
lucky we reached bout 11pm.. and not 9.30pm... ><>

I've lost a friend..forever and ever... Maybe she will never know...
Maybe she will never understand.. All i can say is, be optimistic.. things aren't always what u thought of.. I can never request her to think behalf of me.. since she thinks i'm the one who ruined her perfect moments.. She thinks i'm at the fault.. She certainly hopes that i'll just leave her alone..
We are not enemies... but strangers.. That's quite bad enough huh... Well, things are always like this..
Realization hitted me just before i write this.. Just hope that she'll be fine.. really fine..

At a certain stage of everyone's lives, there will be changes.. there will be turning points..
In these 2 months, me myself has grown up.. although not a lot, but there is a change in me..
To 2 of my closest friends, they have changed too.. A better change of course..
A close friend who's studying abroad now, who once was a playful person.. Always teases me whenever he has the chance.. However, in this month's time, he's grown up... He's a more serious person now.. Knows how to handle situations.. Being more and more independent.. From him, i learn how to appreciate.. knows how to love people around me.. He reminded me of the warmth of family and friends... Hope he's doing really well over there.. i miss him a lot..i really do..
He once told me "believe in miracle, and there will be miracle for us".. Hope it's true... ^^
Another close friend of mine, she's a darling to me.. She stayed by my side when i'm at my saddest moment... She comforted me, helping me to grow.. This time, it's her turn to have her own problems.. She called me in the afternoon and cried over the phone.. All i can do is to tell her to believe that everything will turn out fine.. She have to have faith in herself.. At last, she called me again in the middle of the night last night.. She's fine at last.. She's out of her pain.. She's tired.. but she has grown up too.. She told me she's more matured by now.. She knows what to appreciate.. and definitely know what she wants.. I'm happy for her..
This is all our process of being more matured... There will be more to go in our lives...
There will be more choices to make.. More roads to be taken...
There will be sadness to let us know the meaning of happiness... There will be tears but also laughter... There are ups and downs in life... But we should learn to accept all of it..
Appreciate things although they may seem little to u..
Most things only happen once in our life time... Take ur time.. Enjoy them..
Most importantly, have faith in ourselves and also people around us..

Today is and end to my trials, but also a beginning of my studies for my finals..
But how am i supposed to do it when i'm feeling so much like a holiday now... Gotta find some motivation to study harder... I can screw up my trials for all i care, but i cant afford to do that in my finals.. That's a big no-no.. I really gotta reach my target to be a pharmacist..
That's what i'm working hard for..That's the reason of my A-levels... Sigh...
Since the last 2 months i've been losing my motivation to study... Although it's been about 2 months,
i still thought of him occasionally.. Thoughts of the sweet memories can still make me smile to myself.. ^^
Guess that's a good thing.. I've slowly forgotten all the bad things..
Can only recall those good ones... It's and end.. Also a beginning...

Tomorrow is my 1st day of my trials.. wonder how will i do..
Hope that eveything i've studied will pay off this time...
Really worry.. Pressure and stress..
Exam really no fun... But still we have to get through it for a better future ahead..
Work hard eveyone!
Sigh.. make me study harder please....

What will u do when it's raining non-stop for a day? There are people who enjoy rain while some just hate it.. I always enjoyed rain until there's one day i stopped enjoying it..
Because sometimes rain brings me back to some unwanted memories.. Although these memories are supposed to be sweet ones...
Rain nowadays makes me feel so moody at times..
Especially today... It has been raining non-stop for about 6 hours..
What can u do during rainy days? Stay indoors.. read a good book perhaps..
Or have a nice sleep.. Rest urself through a day, then prepare for a new day tomorrow would be a good idea..
I hope the rain brings more good than bad...
I hope i'll enjoy rain soon..
I hope when the next rain comes, i'll be happily thinking of the old days...

Are there any bad things that can happen to me? Sigh.. Today when cindy, cy and i went for our biology class, we reached early and placed our bags at class B103... We thought the class will be conducted there.. (It's normally there).. After all, there are students from our class are also there, then we went out for our lunch.. it's a lucky thing that we brought along our handphones and purse...
Then the worse thing came and hit us.. When we were done with our lunch, we went back to the class and found out that our class has shifted to class CG02.. But the worst is the door of B103 is locked form inside!!! We can't get in and our bags are in it...
So, at last we went to biology class without our books, bags, pencil cases.. nothing...
After class, we gotta go to A-levels department and look for Ms. Mable to ask for the maintenance to open the door for us..
It's so embarassing.. Sigh...
However, by the time we reached class B103, we found out that the door was open already and there are students inside it.. Actually we didn't notice anyting wrong with it.. But later on, Cy found out that her money was missing.. And now i'm typing this with realising that i've lost my calculator too.. I sincerely hope that it's just one of my friends who accidentally took mine.. Sigh...
After class, cat and i went to The Mines.. then we got something not-to-good for ourselves...
And it was raining heavily outside.. So, we can't go so fast...
How many bad news will i hear and how many bad things could happen to me in a week?
That's so bad luck of me!!
Hope eveything's going to be fine for the next week... Hoping the same to all my friends too...
Work hard for trials.. ^^

I can't figure out whats wrong with me..
It seems like i'm getting very emotional at times..
Hmm... wolud it be because of the rain that comes so often?
Would it be because of my results that didn't satisfy me?
Would it be because of the things that i never want to know?
Would it be because of all the unwanted news that i never wanna hear?
Would it be because of a sad song, a sad movie, or a sad story...
Or is it just simply because of something that i have never let go...