Mooodddyyyy
I don't feel myself lately. I am happy at this second, then depressed at the next. I am constantly in need of other people and things to distract my attention. I am very much toned-down these days, not as excited as before. I don't jump in joy screaming even if I'm really, like really happy. Smile is the only one thing I can afford.
I was not aware of how emotional I am these days until when I was driving back home alone at late night. It was already midnight, that night when I was driving on an unfamiliar road, praying that I would not lost my way. But, it seems the more I fear, the chances of getting lost are higher. And finally, a wrong turning puts me into a place which I've never been before. I couldn't recognize the road ahead of me. I continued driving at a slow speed, searching for signboards. Then, I felt a lump in my throat and I know tears are gonna flow if I don't stop it in time. I stopped the tears from flowing and continued driving for another 30 minutes before I finally recognize my way home.
Until now, I still couldn't figure out why I had that sudden urge of tears welling in my eyes. I always get lost while driving (and never felt a thing) but why this time am I so fragile. I am usually not a timid person, am I?
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