I've been hesitating a lot about typing out this piece of post. I don't know where should I write from nor what should I write actually. All I know is, I learned an important lesson today - and that is NEVER EVER get on to a yellow color taxi. I'm just plain dumb knowing this so late. And plain stupid to realized this at the age of 20. Oh gosh!! There might be some people who can understand what I'm typing about. I'm not going to type too much or elaborate my experience, because it's too painful to recall about it. :p Remember one thing, DO NOT get on into a yellow taxi. NEVER!!

Wednesday, 22 August 2007

Ended...

It's Jacky Cheung's concert!! The concert is very nice and it is really no regrets going for it.. *all smiles* In fact, it is the best among all I've been to. It was superb... fantastic... great... fascinating... There are no words to describe how good it is. Really. Even better than Jay Chou's. (Don't get me wrong, I still love Jay... ^^ )
We ( bro, sis, cousin and I ) reached the stadium at about 8.20pm. We were not afraid of being late because we have numbered seatings. We found our seats after rounds of searching and realized that our seats were taken by 3 women. We made attempts to get into our seats, and I was the 1st one approaching them. And then the fat one spoke up to me, while the other 2 friends of hers remained silent.

1st encounter with the bitch.
Me: Excuse me, what are your seating numbers? I think you all sat at the wrong place. ( very politely )
Bitch: Ya, these are not our seats. So?! Our seats are somewhere over there ( pointing to some seats faraway )
Me: That's right... The seats belong to us. Would you move away back to your own seats? ( losing my patience )
Bitch: The crew member asked us to sit here wan..
Me: But the seats are ours!!

All of sudden, the lights were off. Then the music came, and the concert started punctually at 8.30pm. Jacky Cheung came out... Oh my god... We were left with no choice but to quickly settle down in 4 seats that were not belongs to us. We knew that we will be asked to move away sooner or later by the owner of the seats. And as true as it is, 15 mins later, bro was the 1st one who was asked to leave. Then another 10 mins passed by. 3 aunties approached sis, cousin and I. We got scolded and were asked to leave harshly. And that really made us angry. We never felt so embarrassed before. And the whole situation got worse when everyone in the stadium was seated and only left 3 of us standing. I got so angry that I walked straight up to that fat lady again. And my smart cousin went to find a crew member.

2nd encounter with the bitch.
Bro: Hey, now all my sisters don't have a place to sit because you and your friends are sitting in our places. Move away from our seats.
Bitch: No.. The crew member asked us to sit wan wor... Now we want to move to where...
Bro: We can't possibly let you all sit in our seats. We paid RM200 for our tickets. We don't wanna quarrel with you. Show me your tickets.
Bitch: You wait.. ( Searching her bag for tickets.. but nothing came out after a long time.. )
Then... I lost my patience and blew up at her.
Me: You are wrong to sit in our place! You don't know where to sit, then go find a crew member lar. You can wait outside. Just move away!!
Bitch: The crew member brought us here wan... ( She still sat there and refused to move )
Me: Then the crew member was wrong lor. Just go away. We want our seats back! It's ours!! Now that we're all standing and is blocking people's view from the concert!
Sis: Go away lar!!
We were shouting to her, and I almost lost my control of calling her "bitch" in the public. How lucky that my smart cousin came back with a crew member and talked to her.
Crew: Excuse me, miss. May I see your tickets?
Bitch: Here you are. ( The tickets were out from her bag.. at last.. )
Crew: Your place is not here. Do you mind to move and return those seats to other people?
Bitch: Your colleague brought me here wan... That person said we can sit here wan wor...
That stupid lady and friends still refused to move. Although everyone there was saying "Wah... where got people like that wan.. Sit at people's place some more don't wanna go away... Blocking us watch concert only lar.. "
She really doesn't feel ashamed at all !! This is the 1st ever person I've met with the thickest face.
At last, even the crew can't make her move her fat ass. He left to get his supervisor to talk to her. Then after some minutes, at last.. she left.. (reluctantly) Because of her, we missed Jacky Cheung's dancing performance. We only got into our right seats that belongs to us at about 9.15pm. @#X%$@#
I really really felt like slapping her damn face. But the worse has yet to come. Later on, I realized there was a cute guy sitting beside us. And I lost my temper earlier, and acted so rude... Gosh... My reputation was all tarnished! But that guy didn't seemed to mind a bit. He even smiled to us. And when the concert ended, he talked to us. :)
Apart of all these, the concert was amazing! Jacky Cheung, although at 46, still danced and sang energetically. All songs were nice because of his powerful and crystal clear voice. There was dancing, singing and even a half an hour stage drama. There was not even a second of boredom. He joked on the stage and shared us a lot about his family. And the best part was, his encore lasted for an hour, with 11 songs!! Great man he was, wasn't it? I enjoyed myself there very much. All in all, the concert just left me mesmerized. No wonder he is called "gor san"( The god of singing ). This title truly belongs to him. ^^

p/s: I don't normally use foul words in my blog. But that particular fat lady really pissed me off. Sorry to all readers.

The time now,
0126...

不瞞你說　我真的有想過　從今以後不再跟你　有任何聯絡
Not to hide the truth from you, there's once when I really thought of not to have any connection with you from now onwards.

不要再試著暗示我　後來你發現甚麼

Do not try to hint me on what you've realized afterwards.

不瞞你說　並不特別寂寞　接下來的幾個週末　節目特別多
Not to hide the truth from you, actually I don't really feel lonely. For the few weekends ahead, my schedule are especially full.

偶而會有人喜歡我　但並不代表甚麼
Sometimes, there are someone who likes me. But that doesn't mean anything.

現在的我　不缺甚麼　認真的生活　偶而會難過

The present me does not lack of anything. I lead my life seriously, and I get sad sometimes.

新朋友很多　他們不夠瞭解我 (他們都不瞭解我)
There are many new friends, they don't understand me enough ( They don't understand me )

問了太多　我只是微笑的帶過
When they asked too much, I will just smile and move on.

未來的我　沒有如果　不相信星座　能預告甚麼
The future me doesn't have what if, doesn't believe that horoscope can predict anything.

假設那麼多　過去會不會復活　最好沒有如果
Speculating too much, will the past comes alive again. It's best there's no what if.

不瞞你說　經過幾次風波　你不能再從我臉上　讀出些甚麼

Not to hide the truth from you, after going through few obstacles, you can no longer read the expressions from my face.

要適應的事越來越多　改變的不止是我

There are a lot of things that I need to adapt to. I'm not the only one who's changing.

假設那麼多　過去能不能來過　我不相信如果
Speculating too much, will the past repeat itself. I don't believe in what if.

我最近很喜欢的一首歌。 特别点给
曾经假如我的生活里的你，而且把我改变了。谢谢你。：）
A song which I like recently. Specially dedicated to the one person who's once entered my life and had changed me in someway. Thank you. :)

p/s: I purposely translated it, for the convenience of some of my loyal readers cum friends. ^^ (Please bear in mind that I only literally translated the whole lyrics)

8/9/2007 marked the big-day for cousin Jane, as it was her graduation day. The whole family was so happy and excited for her. They even planned everything so nicely and set up a time to meet up with cousin Jane. It's been quite some time our family had this kind of big event. She graduated as a biotechnologist. :) Her graduation is at UCSI, coincidentally, the place where I'm studying currently. As I'm studying there. I'm familiar with the way to UCSI and also the way in UCSI, which I know where mph is located... where the toilets are.. where to buy mineral water and so on so on... And thus, I was assigned to become the photographer of the day. I accompanied my aunt to get into the hall to witness my cousin's convocation after our lunch at Cheras. Although it was not encouraged to take any photographs in the hall, as they have their own official photographer, but I can't help to snap a few inside, to leave my cousin sister some memories.
In the hall, I met an old friend of mine, Wee Chin. He was my primary school mate as well as my secondary school mate. We've known for years but never get any closer. To my surprise, Wee Chin is now a lecturer. And to my assumption, a professional photographer too, as I saw the gadgets he brought to shoot his brother's nicest image. In fact, it looked like he brought the whole studio with him. Okay... I might be exaggerating a little, but it's true he looks professional. However, it feels nice meeting an old friend again. :)
The whole ceremony ended at 5pm. When I walked out to the lobby with my aunt, half of the family already reached. By about 6pm, the entire family was there, waiting for cousin Jane with bouquets of flowers and bears. I bet our family, was the most to turned up and I loved the scene of it. That's the spirit of our family - forever supportive and helpful. :) We've always been close-knitted and I thank god for that.
After all the photo-shooting session, we went for our dinner at Brickfields as the celebration. Most of us were almost starving when we reached the restaurant, especially cousin Jane. She's been hungry and dehydrated. Poor her... The grown-ups ordered way too much food and we didn't managed to finish them all. And it appeared that they had forgotten all about the cake that I had reserved for cousin Jane as dessert. After all the foods, we had to wait for some time before taking out the cake, as we all felt too full. But no one could resist Secret Recipe's cheeze choc. Haha... :p
All in all, I've been the camera girl for the day and nearly killed myself in my high heels shoes, after standing, running and walking around for the entire day. But still, I felt I stand tall, looking very nice. ^^ A tiring but a happy day.
Once again, CONGRATULATIONS to cousin Jane. Cheers.. ^^

Everyone have their rights to choose what they want in life. There are plenty of crossroads where we make a decision, and later assuring ourselves that it is the best for us. Decisions we've made yesterday make what we are today. And that is how important to never let ourselves choosing the wrong road. A right road ahead leads us to a bright future, however a wrong one can make our lives turn upside down. We might need to make a lot of choices during our journey to our destination. But by the end of the day, when it all turns out fine, we will know that while standing at the crossroads pondering which road to take is only the process of reaching our goals.
And so, I've always told myself to choose a road which suits myself and never be regret after that. Regretting is just a another way of telling myself I was wrong. But this time around, I'm really feeling very miserable. It's not that I don't know which road to choose, because ahead of me, there's only one road. The one and only one. I'm not even put into the position of choosing. I can only follow this road without complaints or stop in the middle of the way and end up losing everything. I hope this only road will be the right one for me.
I'm left with no choice at all... but only one...

For once, I've doubted on how much I love myself. I've always complain on everything. On my looks, my skin, my studies, my piano classes, my friends, my family and the list goes on and on... I'm just a perfect whiner I could say. I whined and sighed on every occasion which didn't turned out to be my liking. I know this is a very bad attitude, but I felt like I couldn't change. Or should I say, I didn't wanna let myself change.
However, when change turns someone to become better, I think it's best to go for a try. And I realized complaining don't get me into solving my problems but instead getting myself feeling miserable from time to time. I learned that ....

I couldn't complain about my results if I didn't study hard enough.
I couldn't whine about my dark eye circles if I were to sleep after midnight.
I couldn't expect everyone whom I meet likes me.
I couldn't get everyone to share my joy and sadness.
I couldn't wait for my friends to find me if I didn't attempt to do so.

So, everything turns out to be : When there's an effort in doing something, the result will be much better than only complaining and sulking alone.
Now, I've learned to love myself, my family and friends. They had given their best to me, and I should repay by showing them the best of myself.
Turn everything into a positive thought.

If ever I'm being alone, I'll enjoy the quietness around.
If ever it's raining and the atmosphere being depressing, I'll enjoy the sound of the raindrops and the cold wind blowing.
If ever I quarrel with my family, I'll think they scold me for my own good.
If ever there are conflicts between my friends and I, it will be the chance for us to build stronger friendship.

I love being me because I make the best out of myself. :)

It always feels nice when there are friends with us... Am I right? No matter how happy or how sad are we, they are there to share everything with us. And indeed, I shared a lot this weekend.
During this few outings which i had for the past few days, I realized how lucky I am knowing my friends all along. On the eve of Independence day, I've had lunch with Jin wah and Li ti.. They are consider as my important friends, who I felt very grateful to them for many things. Like usual, we crapped nonsense more than proper conversation, but still felt great with their company. :)
At night, Kwok shen asked me whether it's okay for me to go out "yum cha'... I said okay, so Kheen Yew, jie fu and he came and find me. Then we went to dear's house to pick her up. We kinda had an enjoyable night together. Our initial plan was to see fireworks. Well, we did saw some but not very clear. So much so, we still enjoyed ourselves at Yew's auntie's place. Auntie is a very nice person, and taught us a lot on how to lead our lives without regrets. She asked her chef to cook us some nice food. We all loved her food and promised to go back there again for dinner some other time. In one day's time, I saw 6 very important friends. It's a big achievement.
On Independence day itself, I've stayed home all day and went to grandma's house for dinner. Then my beloved cousins suggested that we go out "yum cha", and so we went.
Very quickly, Sat comes and it means September is here. Time flies, another 3 more months, year 2007 will end. And this is what I'm waiting for to happen. Cousins and I went to Queenspark to look out for cheap stuff to buy. I ended up not buying anything, because I'm really broke these days. Then they wanted to "yum cha" again. But this time it really costs me a lot. We had Starbucks.. :(
At night, we all gathered up at grandma's house once again for steamboat. Before we even finished dinner, my uncle told us about tomorrow morning's breakfast. After dinner, I went out "yum cha" again with a friend. He's going off to Singapore soon. All the best to him. Oh my god... This weekend for me only revolves around "yum cha" and food. And all are good food! I cannot imagine how many days I have to starve myself for the next few weeks.
All in all, with my family and friends around, I felt like the luckiest person to live on earth. Satisfaction in my life, is not only about money and success, but is about who I met along the way. It's about the people who appeared in my life. :)
I'm glad you all are my beloved ones.