My life, My memory, My dream

This is a hectic semester.

Too hectic till I don't have a proper time to post up a single update about my life. Am not only busy in studying, but also contributing to school events. It's too tired to sit in front of the monitor to write out a story. I need more time to sleep.. Why are we not getting 72 hours a day?

Today is an exception is because I need a place to de-stress myself. Yes, it's the exam period again. The time which I dreaded most as exams often make me lose confidence in everything I'm doing. Ever since a child, I was never really bad in examinations, and in fact I had very good results. But as I grow up, getting good grades seems too much like a dream as I'm pursuing a difficult course. People around me often asked "Have you ever regret in doing this course?" or "Do you think it's a bit wasteful of time to pursue this course as you have to repeat your pre-u?" And no matter how many times I reply, the answer remains the same. "No." Never regret a decision in your life no matter it's right or wrong. If it's wrong, learn from the mistake and never to repeat it again. This is my principle in leading my life. Why wanna dread on a past decision when now is the moment to determine the future? Dreading on the past is just too wasteful.

But, sometimes no matter how many times I assure myself that this is the right decision, I can't help feeling upset when I can't keep up with my expectations. Things get a little out of control when the efforts I've put in is not paid off. This makes me doubt myself - whether I'm good enough or not, whether i can perform well, and whether i can prove the world that i can really do it. I realise things are getting nowhere when my confidence level is running low, but still I can't help feeling this in me.

Writing it out in my blog post helps to regain my confidence as I'm done with my self-motivation pep talk. While writing this piece of post, I keep on recalling myself of the past - where i know when i've done great, and also reminding myself that i actually have more in myself. I have yet to show the world my best and will continue to work hard. There's no limitation on being better. It's just doing greater than being just great.

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For the past one month, I've been too busy to update my blog (there's always quizzes to study + assignments due date to be met) , and when I have that time, I did not have the mood to write. Partly, I lost the motivation to continue updating when I know my dear was leaving soon to UK. I guess life will always be a little lonely without my dear by my side. I said before, I am a person who adapt to changes easily, but never readily. If there's a choice, I would have chosen to stay the same always. But, there's no way for us to stop growing up and seeing people around us leaving. What we can do is to keep moving on - happily. =)

With the great invention of webcam, there's not so much of distance between us afterall. All we need is a little arrangement plus a little bit of effort and there's always time for a catch up. I had very fun time having Skype session with my cousin sister and dear dear. It's really happy to see them both healthy and cheerful. It seems life's treating them very good. And I hope it goes the same until the end of their stay over there.

Life's been treating me well too. I was in a slight depression mode 2 days ago, but was quickly cheered by a whole bunch of friends. "Family" took me went shopping and told me the best cure for a girl's depression is to shop our hearts' out. I have the sudden urge to swipe my card until it reach its limit - but again, that was just a thinking (and already it made me felt so much better) In the end, I bought myself a top using my own cash, and that was enough to keep my mood up, as I know deep down in heart, what really lifted my mood was not really buying stuff, but the accompany of my "family". "Yum cha" at the lakeside, surrounded by friends and laughter completed my day. ^^

A lot had happened in the whole past month, and it's too tiring to list out events one by one. Hence, I'll let the pictures to do all the talking. =)